Why Try?

You may wonder why I chose why try as my title. It seems fitting for everything that we go through in life. With family and work, marrage and kids. The task is monstrous if not scarry. That by itself is enough to kill ya. Life is just plain hard sometimes, and to be honest. There isn't a lot we can do to change it. But for a select few life isnt all that they have to deal with. Less than 1% of all americans serve in todays armed forces. Of those a great many have deployed to Iraq of afghanistan. They brought with them some extra baggage, things like PTSD, depression, anger, fear, etc. add this to life's already hechtic plate and you have in some cases a recipe for disator. There is no one in the world that will ever know what a soldier goes through not the wife or family just the ones that was there. So why the title? It is a thought that has run through my head everyday. Why do I even try, WHY! I want so much to feel different but I know I will never be the same. I and forever marked. The question is will I let these destroy me or define me?

Prayer:

Lord, I know the mistakes that I have made aren't all related to my deployment, but the why I feel deep down inside is. I want to be free. I need peace. I want peace for my family and my marrage.

In Jesus Name

Amen